Another dose for Eleanor

Still trying to keep up with my early/late updates. Just came down from sleeping next to Alexis and Greer. Eleanor was showing more signs of distress this morning (pinched face, etc.) so I gave her another dose of morphine to calm her. Quinn seems to be fine - although she cries softly at times. She's been the one with the voice thus far. Yesterday, when we were holding them, our hospice doctor spoke admirably of Quinn's sweet singing - a singular note that she would intone after each breath. We listened to it through the stethoscope and imagined the songs that might have been.

Starting to get a little sad again. The need to give painkillers to the twins brings me back to reality. I've been so busy enjoying them at home, that I've ignored the shadows. Now....I'm just asking God for one more pain-free day.

Today will see more visitors - and the prospect of a family portrait. My aunt Maxine and Uncle Ed are coming by - as are my photographer friends Mike and Amy.

I just would like them to be stable and calm....and hope that their coming passage is much the same.